You might be feeling unsettled and frustrated at the moment. Things are not going as you had hoped. Plans are not going to plan. Relationships might feel stalled and unresolved. You are stuck somewhere between what you want to happen in your life and what is actually happening in your life.
The Edge of the Unknown
I call this place, this uncomfortable place, the edge of the unknown. You are frustrated by the present unsettled and unsatisfactory moment in your life.
I’ve been working on my own “edge” recently. A metaphor has been helping me find calm here in this moment of indecision.
Floating in Warm Waters
I imagine that I’m treading water in the warm waters of a large lake. I can see the shore that I would like to reach. I can also see the shore of my current life situation. It’s a beautiful day. I am buoyant and not struggling in the water to stay afloat. But I am longing to start swimming towards the distant shore of what I think I want. I want to get going. I am frustrated as I look at both sides of the lake and I begin to feel my anxiety as I think about how far I am from my desired outcome.
I stop for a second. I bring my thoughts back to this moment. There is nothing threatening me. I am not in crisis. It’s a lovely day to be swimming. As I take a deep breath I rest and allow myself to float on my back. Looking up at the sky I become aware of happiness inside. I am being taken care of. Something in the universe is supporting me in my pause as I contemplate my life and all of the options around me. I begin to relax as I agree with the message that emerges in my mind: I am not alone. My higher power (god, spirit) has the roadmap for my life.
If I can let go of *my* imagined map of how my life should-could-wish-it-would, be at this moment, I can enjoy more of the day, more of this present moment in time, more of my supported and beautiful life. I may not be ready to strike out for the distant shore of what I want. I may be in a period of emergence where my questions and requests are being considered and my answers have not been provided. It’s easy to understand that I could let my anxiety and fear turn me back towards the shore of what IS in my life. And I can also understand how my body, mind, and soul feel ready to go. But it is not the moment to set out for the shore of your next life adventure. You simply don’t have a clear answer.
Rather than go to sleep on your back (alcohol, drugs, sex, sugar, acting out) I can continue my curious inquiries about what’s next for me. I am ACTIVELY WAITING. I can explore all of my desired options without striking out for any of them. Until there is a clear answer, I can pursue all of the ideas in my mind. I can actively search for that job in New York, if that’s one of my ideas. I can pause a difficult relationship, and ask for a moment of self-repair. I can give myself and my soul the time to find the answer. When the way is clear my path forward will light up with energy and clarity. I will know when it’s time to set out to fulfill my next big desire.
What We Don’t Know vs What We Know
What I don’t know at this moment is where I really want to put 100% of my focus and energy. I have ideas. I have dreams. I have numerous options. But, at this moment I don’t have a clear and energetic answer for my life’s struggles. I have plenty of inquiries going. AND I wait.
This is actually a very powerful and sacred moment. I can see both sides of the lake. I can contemplate my current situation without making any drastic moves or life decisions to change it. I am not in crisis, I do not have to set out for either shore from desperation or exhaustion. In this moment at the edge of the unknown I can take care of my energy, my rest and nutrition, I can turn towards healthier habits that will give my body more agility and flexibility. Right at this moment, all options are available to me. If I can lean into the pause in the middle of the lake, if I can relax and float looking up at the beautiful sky, I can continue my explorations of potential paths without being forced into action. I have to relax, breathe, and listen to my anxiety, fear, and frustration. I can learn from my frustrations. I can learn from my aspirations. And I can stay in the calm waters of the lake until I know with every fiber of my being, what light on the shore is calling me in.
A Spiritual Life
We are all on a spiritual journey. Even if we’re not particularly religious, most of us have some awareness of our spiritual connection to other people. We are here to share our stories with others that join us along the path. That conversation extends to ourselves and our inner dialogue. We constantly chatter with ourselves about what we want, how it should be, who did us wrong, and how “if only” things were different we’d be happy. Well, here’s the bad news: it’s not others or external events that are going to make any of us happy. Here’s the good news: we can make ourselves happy, even in the middle of the lake of the unknown, if we can become aware of our larger place in the universe and our fractional particle in it.
We are small in comparison to the universe. The universe, however, is connected to us. If we tune into that connection and listen to what’s happening in our souls, in our hearts, in our chattering minds, we can slow things down, we can enjoy the warm waters of the lake, and choose to enjoy the float, rather than thrash off in a direction towards a shore that we are unclear about. Let’s get curious about this moment, this stillness. Let’s enjoy the breath, the feeling of our bodies, the warmth of the water and the sun on our faces. Let’s listen for the signals coming from within ourselves.
In our lives, we have UP Sparks and DOWN Sparks. If we are in a massive transition the most powerful moment is in the silence and stillness. Our goal is to identify the UP Sparks and bring more of them into our lives. This will rekindle the fire inside. At the same time, we can identify the DOWN Sparks and make efforts to damp them down, create less of them, and ultimately say goodbye to the things in our lives that are not serving our fully empowered and fully ignited selves.
Your Soul Fire
You deserve a great life. You deserve a huge bonfire of love and happiness. The Sparks are right inside you. The kindling of your life and the power of your attention are all you need to light your fire. Light it. And if you’re not sure what direction to head in, just keep enjoying the moment, keep breathing and pausing, and listen. Your soul fire will guide you home.
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