Reflecting On My Ex-wife’s Rage Nine Years After the Divorce She Wanted

Reflecting On My Ex-wife’s Rage Nine Years After the Divorce She Wanted

I’ve been blogging about my divorce since before my divorce was final. I started an anonymous blog (The Off Parent) to hide the journal of my anger, sadness, and loss. A few weeks back, with the publication of my book (Fall of the House of Dad) I unmasked the “off” parent as the same guy who writes the “whole” parent. At this point in my kids’ lives, they are old enough to read or not read my divorce stories. They don’t or haven’t mentioned it, but I suspect eventually, in their 20’s or 30’s they will ask the question, “I wonder what happened to our parent’s marriage.” I have done my best in the nine years since the divorce to keep the Whole Parent 100% positive. I have failed occasionally, but for the most part, this blog has stayed true to the mission.

  • 100% Postive
  • Kids First
  • Mom-friendly

But right off the bat, even with the Whole Parent, my ex-wife has been furious about my writing this blog.

ex-wife says don't write about me or the kids, ever

I don’t think it was about the “harmful communications.” I do think it was about being exposed in some of her more egregious actions. But, the majority of those have been published on The Off Parent and not here. And I have often wondered if this is what she’s still mad about: this blog tells our story. For better and worse, this blog documents my side of being a single dad and dealing with the fallout of the divorce for me and the kids. I cannot be concerned for my ex-wife’s feelings at this point. It’s still painful to me that we can’t co-parent, but perhaps it’s more about this continuous writing about divorce and ex-wives that seems “harmful” to her. Or maybe just her self-esteem.

As I went back and looked up a few of the emails she wrote to me about this writing topic, I found these two messages.

divorced father writes about his experience

And with that our conversation came to a quick close. We were in disagreement. She would consult with her lawyer. I would continue to write about the divorce. But the last bit of information I said to her, I see now, is a poorly veiled threat. Maybe this is what keeps her blood boiling nine years later.

And, I do think I have derived a tad of satisfaction in imagining the day my son asks me, “What really happened, dad?” I don’t expect this conversation to happen anytime soon, but I know I would’ve asked my dad, had he still been alive.

My kids deserve to know the truth about the divorce. All of it. My side of it has been worked out here and on The Off Parent. And in the meantime, I hope my journey has empowered and informed some of the half-million readers I’ve had. I don’t mean to damage my ex-wife or cast shade at her new life and new marriage. At the same time, I don’t need to carry her water any longer. When the deal went down she asked for the divorce and fought against me when I wanted to keep working on it.

  • She did not want to go back to full-time work to support our lifestyle.
  • She talked to a lawyer before talking to me or our couple’s therapist.
  • She asked for a collaborative divorce, but had already made up her mind that she was going for the “package.”
  • She received the lions share of the kids’ lives (70%), a healthy child support payment ($1,500 plus insurance coverage for the kids), and she got to say in the house we bought on my down payment and my salary for almost 9 years.

So she’s mad. She got what she wanted and she’s still mad. Oh, and I’m still writing. I guess that’s the hot poker that is still painfully inserted and irremovable.

Always Love,

John McElhenney – life coach austin texas
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As a certified life coach, I’ve been helping men and women find fulfilling lives after divorce. If you’d like to chat for 30-minutes about your dating/relationship challenges, I always give the first 30-session away for free. LEARN ABOUT COACHING WITH JOHN. There are no obligations to continue. But I get excited every time I talk to someone new. I can offer new perspectives and experiences from my post-divorce journey. Most of all, I can offer hope.

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