I can offer hope and ideas for navigating the most difficult co-parent behaviors. Divorce is hard on everyone, please don't use your former partner as a target for your rage and frustration.
I don't want to be an exhausted artist any more than I want to be a starving artist. Both are contraindications to happiness.
The narcissist must keep the secret until they die. To apologize would be to admit she was wrong. My ex-wife is a deadbeat mom.
Keep interrupting the stories you are telling yourself and others. Take control of your thoughts and actions by pausing in the moment and recentering then resetting your trajectory.
I'm happy. I'm proud. And I'm grateful for the divorce, 13 years ago, that allowed me to grow into the dad I am now.
How is it possible that you don't care for or support your co-parent? How can that much anger be misdirected at the former love of your life?
Every single blow against me is felt by our children.
I'm just as dog-like and happy as I've ever been. I'm cultivating my Frodo-like personality traits. I'm also well aware of my somewhat unbalanced need to be loved by everyone.