It's hard to understand what JOY + JOY feels like when you've only experienced less. Once. you know it, however, you're never going to settle for "meh" or "okay."
But, with each of my last three relationships, I learned some fundamental truths about myself in a relationship. I am not surprised that dating has little or no allure. I had such a wonderful partner. I learned what if felt like to be loved with abandon and openness. And I learned how far I could go before I broke down over the disconnections that continued to happen.