Facing My Personal Dragon: Depression
The dragon, my depression, is with me. He's not going anywhere. And to fight him is to fight and destroy myself. So instead, I'm going to love and befriend this dragon.
The dragon, my depression, is with me. He's not going anywhere. And to fight him is to fight and destroy myself. So instead, I'm going to love and befriend this dragon.
Say YES to all the things that give you joy. Invitations, even when you are not feeling all that great, say YES.
My carnival is happy. And I have to understand that other's carnivals are not my responsibility. Not now. Not ever.
Today, I can say, I'm content and ambitious at the same time. I'm creatively alive and vibrant, without too much focus on the outcome. I write, I sing, I pray, for my own pleasure and enjoyment.
On a good day, I can let that dark thought go. On a bad day, I just want to crawl back in bed and try not to wake up.
I can. I am. And I am learning to be better to myself. I'm good with others. I have compassion, empathy, and support for just about any struggle my friends or family are going through. But when I look at myself and my failures, I'm often harsh and shaming.
We bend when the winds swirl around us. We agree to be together and to weather the storm. Covid, in some ways, gave me cover for my silence. Many of us "sensitive" people were struck mute by the ravages and fear of the virus as it closed windows, doors, and opportunities.
Do you get frustrated when you're not in the highly-functional and kicking-ass zone? I am happiest when I'm in the 6's and 7's. But I'm learning to love myself even when I'm in the 3's.